Reflective Part 2

Reflective Part 2

We are in the last month of 2018!

A lot has happened for me this year for better or for worse.

I made < $5k so far in 2018 in my business.

I invested every last ounce of money I saved up in my health.

Why did this happen?

I spent the majority of 2018 living in fear and escaping every chance I had.

  • With food

  • With substances

  • With working more

All my offers were ridden with doubt, but a small voice kept saying “be patient and don’t give up!”

Lessons Learned from a Lone Traveller

Lessons Learned from a Lone Traveller

Traveling alone was definitely the biggest leap I have ever taken out of my comfort zone. 

Over the weekend, I traveled to Bassnectar's Freestyle Sessions in Colorado for 4 days and 5 nights.

From being a person who never took risks growing up, I have decided to release all limiting beliefs around that.

I learned so much about myself and others that I would not have had I gone with others.

It has been a wonderful opportunity to source myself and interact with new people.

For anyone who has wanted to take the leap, but is holding back, I want to share 11 lessons I learned that have helped me grow as a person over the past few days, which I will be able to use for the rest of my life.

Mother's Day

Mother's Day

I see many posts on Mother’s Day about all the beautiful moments people on social media are presenting.

What people don’t typically talk about are the people who have rocky relationships with their mothers, none at all, or they have passed on.

I have felt all sorts of feelings today such as jealousy, envy, frustration, guilt, and anger.

I honestly have been dreading today and am at peace that it’s over.

Lost in the Crowd

Lost in the Crowd

For those of you afraid of being alone, this blog is for you. I have been single for 4.5 months and have decided to use this as an opportunity to find myself. I used to never take risks such as going to shows alone. Growing up, I always played it safe because being comfortable felt much easier on the outside because I never dealt with my fear of rejection. It always scared me being alone because I felt like nobody wanted to be with me. I never felt good enough and as a result, manifested situations that validated me not feeling good enough. I would always depend on my friends for plans because I never felt capable of making them myself. In 2018, I decided to flip the switch on these beliefs and choose to feel like I am enough right now. There are plenty of people who love me and I don’t need validation from anyone else or a situation to feel that way. I chose to deeply love and accept myself instead. Sure, it seemed scary venturing out of my comfort zone, but it has been the most rewarding experience of my life every time I step into the next level version of myself. If you’re ready to step into the you that you’ve always wanted, check out my new blog where I share my most recent story about how I found myself in a crowd of 15k+ people.

My Journey of My Body

My Journey of My Body

I want to share a progress picture because I haven’t posted one in a while.

Or really at all for that matter.

The reason why I haven’t is that I’ve had a lot of confidence issues around my body regardless of my size.

In my earlier pictures like this one from 4 years ago, I didn’t even want to show my face because of all the shame I had around my body.

I was over 30 lbs heavier, which is a lot for a 5’2 frame.

“I’m fat!”
“I feel gross!”
“I’m too bloated!”

Whatever it was, I was never happy with my body.

What is Self Acceptance?

What is Self Acceptance?

What does self-acceptance mean?

It means loving every part of yourself whole heartedly for every thought, feeling, and action you make.

It means forgiving yourself and others for past mistakes.

It means owning up to your bull shit stories holding you back and learning from them through the lens of gratitude.

It’s respecting yourself enough to know your worth, regardless of what is projected at you.

This is all with a deeper understanding that you are a soul living inside this exterior shell, your body.

You entered the physical realm with a spiritual contract to achieve your soul’s deeper purpose far greater than anything tangible on this planet.