For those of you afraid of being alone, this blog is for you. I have been single for 4.5 months and have decided to use this as an opportunity to find myself. I used to never take risks such as going to shows alone. Growing up, I always played it safe because being comfortable felt much easier on the outside because I never dealt with my fear of rejection. It always scared me being alone because I felt like nobody wanted to be with me. I never felt good enough and as a result, manifested situations that validated me not feeling good enough. I would always depend on my friends for plans because I never felt capable of making them myself. In 2018, I decided to flip the switch on these beliefs and choose to feel like I am enough right now. There are plenty of people who love me and I don’t need validation from anyone else or a situation to feel that way. I chose to deeply love and accept myself instead. Sure, it seemed scary venturing out of my comfort zone, but it has been the most rewarding experience of my life every time I step into the next level version of myself. If you’re ready to step into the you that you’ve always wanted, check out my new blog where I share my most recent story about how I found myself in a crowd of 15k+ people.
I want to share a progress picture because I haven’t posted one in a while.
Or really at all for that matter.
The reason why I haven’t is that I’ve had a lot of confidence issues around my body regardless of my size.
In my earlier pictures like this one from 4 years ago, I didn’t even want to show my face because of all the shame I had around my body.
I was over 30 lbs heavier, which is a lot for a 5’2 frame.
“I feel gross!”
“I’m too bloated!”
Whatever it was, I was never happy with my body.