Reflective Part 2

We are in the last month of 2018!

A lot has happened for me this year for better or for worse.

I made < $5k so far in 2018 in my business.

I invested every last ounce of money I saved up in my health.

Why did this happen?

I spent the majority of 2018 living in fear and escaping every chance I had.

  • With food

  • With substances

  • With working more

All my offers were ridden with doubt, but a small voice kept saying “be patient and don’t give up!”

Little did I know, I’ve been escaping forever.

2018 is the year I became aware of this destructive habit.

I used 2018 to live my life on my terms.

I chose to seek help because I didn’t know any better and didn’t fully trust myself.

I wanted to see my life differently.

People have told me how crazy I am to not be working a real job.

I need to be living life according to someone else’s box.

Fuck no!

What I’ve learned is there is more to life than making money to pay bills and dying.

There is a whole world out there that wants me to experience it.

I did what any mortal human wouldn’t dare to do.

I decided to take radical responsibility for my life on:

  • Who I allow in my space.

  • My past that has been dictating my present

  • Living my life out of bounds

Sometimes, the mental growth needs to happen first before its physical equivalent shows up.

In my case, it’s $$$.

While my bank account is currently low, all of the knowledge and tools I’ve gained from it far outweigh the tens of thousands I’ve spent.

I believe my situation is temporary, so I chose to advance my education while I have nothing but time.

Knowledge is NOT free.

People who spend their energy on you to listen to your shit deserve to be highly compensated.

I stand by that in my business because people need support if they want true, life sustaining growth.

I’m thankful for the coaches I’ve hired because their insight helped me resurface and deal with my trauma that has been holding me back.

I didn’t have to deal with it alone anymore or hide it from the world.

As a result, I gained a growing tribe of support to lift me up.

I’m thankful for 2 major wellness investments I’ve made because now I get to share with people how much healthier I am with these tools.

As a result, my overall health is the best it’s ever been.

My mood is more stable, I recover from exercise faster, I sleep better, and my body is retaining nutrients for improved gut health.

I experienced less burnouts in 2018 and was able to recover faster when I found myself there.

I am thankful for all of my debt I have accrued and am consistently paying them off on time.

My debt has allowed me to evaluate my life and act only with the utmost integrity.

I only act with full intention and certainty, which has stopped more debt from coming and opened up the abundance floodgates.

Without my debt, I would not be confidently sitting here writing this blog.

Without my debt, I would have never been able to travel multiple times this year.

Without my debt, I would have never met any of the people today that have become my tribe.

Last, I am thankful for myself.

I showed up, did the work every single day, and am seeing the fruits of my labor.

Without showing up and going out of my comfort zone, I would have quit my business and went back down the rabbit hole.

I am so fucking proud of myself for going against my pre conditioning and doing the damn thing that is living my life.

In 2018, I went from burnt out to fully liberated.

I feel like myself again who I haven’t seen since 4 past lives ago.

I’m sober for the first time in a decade.

I love myself more than ever!

As 2019 approaches, I am ready, willing, and able to continue facing my shadows and bring them to light.

I get to impact more lives than I ever can fathom while becoming debt-free.

I’m excited for what 2019 has to offer.

There is more growth and abundance to be had.

My intention is to bring on abundance of love and health into each person I encounter.

2019 is the year of the butterfly.

I spread my wings and fly.

Thank you everyone that has helped me be who I am today. I can’t wait to see you all crush your goals and experience abundance.

Much Love,


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